Sunday, May 28, 2006


   
so my semester in dvc finally ended. my grades is a little.. well haha. lets nt talk about grades, no point brooding about it. well, many people went back to singapore but im still in singapore with the rest of my friends. im so envious of tyo who has so many options, rather so many schools to get into. haha so hes going/ touring america to find the school he likes. kinda sad, but few months later we might not be in the same state, we would be miles apart. lol we sure sound like love birds, well. east coast and west coast. hahaha.

things are going to change drastically from now on. that day when i handed up my last examination, the feeling is so weird. 1.5 year, gone just like that. it feels kind of weird i would say, caust i really don't know how is the future going to be like. its like another chapter of the story book has just ended, and another one is going to be open soon and we got no clue what lies ahead.

i remembered the past, those days that we slacked and really had so much fun. yesterday chat at stella's house really bring back memories. how you dropped the key in the middle of lake tahoe, how me and you capsized the damn jet ski. how we ran around finding mark eades to ask change grade, those chilling session at my house. times that you and i were sad because of studies, how we cheated in the exam, and how we always complained about each other handwritting because we couldn't read the words during the examination to copy. those clam chowder recess with jeffry during anthropology 140 class, how we always do our essays few hours it is due ( though my grade is always lousier and i dont know why ), how we ate in singapore with zihui and shona, and you and i always trying to buy gak jelas electronic to show off to each other, how you always try to find cheap stuff in fatwallet.com. we always nyolot each other and mock at other people. haha then me temening loe lihat is.com, lihat lihat cewe cewe hahaha loe tau siapa yeah dehh... we always sleeping in the class, you singing songs in the class because you were engross with the ipods.

time flies, so many things that i want to remember yet i can't remember all of them, ( though i know you are bad at remembering insignificant stuffs ). well. 2 years later we are going to graduate from university, lets hope that we all can meet up again. haha who knows you be the one attached to a japanese instead of me, and me ended up with an indonesian. wth...

well. just a picture for you guys to remember how we all started 1.5 years ago.



 

darwin  奇跡見えない。

Tuesday, May 23, 2006


   
your own survival is insignificant to others.
难道你还不知道你还是一个人吗?

 

darwin  奇跡見えない。

Sunday, May 21, 2006


   
my blog looks kinda dead now.

im just too lazy to update with my " im ashamed " life. im transfering to university soon, no idea where i will be. my options are too limited unlike tyo. he got too many options unlike me. instead of studying now, im rather daydreaming about things that are not gonna happen, i meant most likely.

leaving dvc soon. i can't wait to see my new environment. of course i will be losing so many things, friends that i made in the past and friends that i just made, leaving the bayarea means leaving all the familiar scenes like the golden gate and fishermenwharf.
life will change drastically, and by november, we will forget each other.

for now, i ought to work hard for my last week of examinations. but obviously, i cant be bothered to study, my attitude towards life sucked. enjoying life when i shouldnt, not enjoying life when i should. everything is going opposite. i wonder if comming america is a mistake, my mother said. now that i turned to an insolent bastard and my brain cells dying every second thinking of the impossible, what choices am i left with but to move on with life in the wrong way.

so i pray to god and hope that he will send me and angel and brighten my life up.
and also my family will struck a lottery to make them an overnight millionaire. i forgot, millionaire is too common these days.

yawns.

 

darwin  奇跡見えない。

Saturday, May 13, 2006


   
i kinda forgot to blog, rather i should say im not in the mood to blog these days.

well my birthday wasn't exactly a blast, but i got drunk after drinking eleven and a half shot of whiskey plus malibu and the mixture of coke and orange juice. hmmm. the hang over was so bad. man... im only accepted in 3 universities. i really hope that usc will take me in.

not really been studying, shit man. the feeling sucks for not studying.

 

darwin  奇跡見えない。